Why I don't apreaciate what i have with my boy friend?

I got together with my best friend who is a guy. We actually really love each other. We are in love. And when we are together everything is pink, but he works most of the week and i get to see him 2 times a week. I become such a paranoia since i got in the winter brake. I see problems in our relationship if is actually is not. I'm always the one who wants everything or nothing. But after i feel guilty and i try to be nice, but i don't know how long he will accept my behaviour. He is so nice and so sweet and he doesn't understand why i don't like some stuffs. And i'm so confused... i don't know how should i behave. I'm afraid of cheating and i'm afraid he will fins my sensible parts in a relationship and he will take advantage of. I had multiple BF before, but nothing serious, i made fun of each one of them . I had a realtionship of half of year , and the rest of 2 years were long distance relationship. After one week after i broke up with my ex bf i got togheter with this guy i critiqu

Why I don't apreaciate what i have with my boy friend?
You dont sound like you're emotionally stable right now. Break up with him (poor guy) and have some time to be alone and really find out what it is you want and find out who you are.
Reply:Because you know you can do better. Let's get together and romp.